Friday, March 5, 2010
' If you fear that they (your wives) will reject you, admonish them and remove them to another bed; firmly beat them. If they obey you, then worry no more. God is high and great.'
I've been feeling so restless nowadays, thinking about things like these, like how a Muslim man can practise polygamy. It bothers me a great deal, it irks and irritates me. I ask myself, as I feel like i'm losing my faith and I can't bear the injustice to fellow Muslim women in other parts of the world. why, why do we not get protection from being hurt both physically and mentally? I'm so emotionally disturbed nowadays I don't know what to do. How can you expect me to hold onto a faith with many so called rules that I strongly object to? It's messing with my mind and I can't take it if another woman is not being treated right. Just because I show my hair, my wrists, my lips to men, does not mean I am trying to seduce men nor am I inviting men to rape me. And how can polygamy be okay unless you are totally okay with your father having another younger wife? How about all the trust and commitment a wife puts into the marriage and to let it all go for someone else? You think it's all just about pro-creation? How much hurt and denial must a woman endure? I feel so angry, even angrier that I cannot do anything about it. It's frustrating when people try to debate with me that these 'rules' are acceptable and okay. It is not okay, you are not that woman going through this. What it feels like to be the weaker and vulnerable sex and even your own husband and faith cannot protect you. Screw it if I'm doomed to go hell for saying all these, but my conscience is clear. Think about it, there are Muslim girls out there being raped and not getting their justice served because of some 'rule' that she needs at least five witnesses, or the number of Muslim girls being killed by the Taliban for going school. How can everything be okay? What person are you?
Last but not least, this is not meant to offend anyone or any Muslim in particular. I am a Muslim woman myself, just expressing my anger here. And most importantly, I don't need your freaking opinion (s), unless you agree with me of course! sheesh, feel abit better now.
11:10 PM