Thursday, August 28, 2008
lets dance to joy division
and celebrate the irony
that everything is going wrong
but we're so happy.
♥
today i did something on impulse
and will live to regret it. again.
i was just so fucking fed up with my hair,
i just fished out all my savings
and spent it all on my hair treatment and
all i got left with me now is two dollars. no joke.
whats more, the treatment will only last for a month.
good job , mai! best, man!
ohwells. i know i've been keeping this inside but its like
i've been a real emotional basketcase for the whole past two weeks.
like really, its just that i dont show it.
i think i have a talent for that.
but tonight i just want lash it out.for my own sanity's sake.
firstly, prelims. actually i gave up halfway through
the one week study break, like fuck this man.
im screwing up my own future man. face it,
im going to be stuck living in a hdb flat forever man.
i feel bad, because i had help, especially from cassie.
sighs. so fucking ashamed of myself. tsktsk.
so i shall mete out my own punishment:
no baybeats for you, no money to dine at nydc and online sprees.
secondly, im bloody fed up with my family.
recently had a family function, and there again,
everyone will be like bitching about the acne scars on my face.
i was born to look this way and i cant help it right.
like there was this aunt who bitch about how
i should stop eating so much seafood and even told me
perhaps i shouldnt eat anything at all.
and she even got her kids to like,
repeating the same shit to me. i swear,
i just wanted to get those bamboo poles ( that you use for laundry)
and stuff it up their bootyholes.
make it three poles for each hole, ya.
meanwhile, at home. my mum keeps quarreling with my sis.
and me, as the innocent bystander, will always get affected as well.
tonight was the final blow. my mum didnt bother to cook dinner
or take us out for dinner.
all i have in my tummy right now is the milo from morning.
sometimes, i just wish i can like live alone
with a really big fat and lazy cat as my lifelong partner
in a beautiful beachouse like in miami.
but noooo, not gonna happen, ever. period.
on a random note, mas actually wanted me to wake up at 5am
later to apply eyeliner for her friend and herself.
then i shall skip school tomorrow. i just hate school. hate college.
i think im seriously losing it.
and celebrate the irony
that everything is going wrong
but we're so happy.
♥
today i did something on impulse
and will live to regret it. again.
i was just so fucking fed up with my hair,
i just fished out all my savings
and spent it all on my hair treatment and
all i got left with me now is two dollars. no joke.
whats more, the treatment will only last for a month.
good job , mai! best, man!
ohwells. i know i've been keeping this inside but its like
i've been a real emotional basketcase for the whole past two weeks.
like really, its just that i dont show it.
i think i have a talent for that.
but tonight i just want lash it out.for my own sanity's sake.
firstly, prelims. actually i gave up halfway through
the one week study break, like fuck this man.
im screwing up my own future man. face it,
im going to be stuck living in a hdb flat forever man.
i feel bad, because i had help, especially from cassie.
sighs. so fucking ashamed of myself. tsktsk.
so i shall mete out my own punishment:
no baybeats for you, no money to dine at nydc and online sprees.
secondly, im bloody fed up with my family.
recently had a family function, and there again,
everyone will be like bitching about the acne scars on my face.
i was born to look this way and i cant help it right.
like there was this aunt who bitch about how
i should stop eating so much seafood and even told me
perhaps i shouldnt eat anything at all.
and she even got her kids to like,
repeating the same shit to me. i swear,
i just wanted to get those bamboo poles ( that you use for laundry)
and stuff it up their bootyholes.
make it three poles for each hole, ya.
meanwhile, at home. my mum keeps quarreling with my sis.
and me, as the innocent bystander, will always get affected as well.
tonight was the final blow. my mum didnt bother to cook dinner
or take us out for dinner.
all i have in my tummy right now is the milo from morning.
sometimes, i just wish i can like live alone
with a really big fat and lazy cat as my lifelong partner
in a beautiful beachouse like in miami.
but noooo, not gonna happen, ever. period.
on a random note, mas actually wanted me to wake up at 5am
later to apply eyeliner for her friend and herself.
then i shall skip school tomorrow. i just hate school. hate college.
i think im seriously losing it.
10:56 PM