Saturday, November 7, 2009
me and the fidazanto(baby, help me edit this photo!)this will be the most hectic november of my life. i have the exams, my cousin's wedding to help out and the many clubbing dates i promised here and there, which i hopefully can sucessfully lie my way through. and when it is all over, i shall pamper myself and especially, do something about my dead/ severely damaged hair that looks like a a haystack, waiting for a horse to randomly gallop by and eat my hair away. serious, its that bad.
i regret having english as my minor, seriously, it is not easy to teach english, i cant remember all my grammar rules and phonetics, homg, i think i wanna drop english, if it is even possible. i will suck as an english teacher.
nowadays, i have developed this weird habit of people-watching and admiring people for their beauty, especially indian people. i mean, they are usually the ones with flawless skin, big almond-shaped eyes, hair that stays in place (unlike mine),long and curly eyelashes and they dont have to use eyeliner or masacara to define their eyes. cos to me, good-looking people = big captivating eyes+ flawless skin+ shiny hair. then i will be overcome with envy and dont like the way i look and bitch about it to my boyfriend. haha, sometimes, i find it so amazing that my boyfriend can tolerate my nonsense. thank you, baby.only you would do that for me (:
nonetheless, school has been getting more fun. especially yesterday when i squeezed nine people into my poor car and we all went outta campus for brunch together. i felt the car was like, screaming in pain as i drove them around, while a partayy was going on at the back and we annoyed fellow ntu drivers. sorry! haha. must sooooo do this again.
i dont know, but i feel like im the sort of person who can talk about everything under the sun and at the same time,reveal so much about my life to a person, even if the person is not even close or its the first time im talking to that person. is it a bad thing? i worry, sometimes, cos i wonder if i give a bad impression to people and are they really listening when i keep yapping all the way? or will people think that im fake or trying too hard? i really worry about what people think about me alot, then i will space out , or better known as 'stoning'....or simply, maybe im thinking too much? i do get headaches when i think so much about all these then, i will think that maybe i should distance myself more so that i will stop regretting whatever i said or did to people..maybe that facebook quiz was right, i do have a personality disorder. okay, now i think i sound weird:S
okay, i should stop talking nonsense and go read up about the Archaea and the Slime Molds (im totally lost about them), then i shall eat steamed cockles, more specifically,
Anadara granosa and bbq seafood for dinner later. yay! im really loving biology, especially when the class went to NUS Musuem and we saw an eagle, tiger, gigantic bats and turtles and and I carried a dead bat and a lemur in my bare hands. cool shit or whutttt...thank you NIE for accepting me after i got rejected by all the other universities. i will work hard to be a good biology teacher and make biology easy and interesting to my future students. hah! *smacks own ass and encourages herself*
2:45 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i shall start again by whining about how tired I am. Here, I am, sitting in the esplanade library, doing my work that seems never ending, while my gastric is killing me, and all the stress coming form project work. Its not that i hate working with people, its just stressful sometimes when i get forced to do things i dont wanna and let people tell me what to do like imma female dog, and inconsiderateness and inconvenience that comes along with it. i dont know, maybe im the one with the problem.
i had a great time with my college mates karaoke-ing and dining and movie-ing. We came to the conclusion that lady gaga looks like a tyranny in that pokerface music video, the fact that im shrinking and that i dont cry easily? haha, I dont know, i dont find the movie, "My Sister's Keeper" that tragic, i got abit teary for a while but i still didnt cry, unlike the rest of my friends. maybe because i just think that Kate is really lucky to have a loving family and one that is rich to do all that stem cell procedures and countless surgeries and all that shit. i mean, i bet there are families here in Singapore, who cant even afford to live a comfortable life, let alone support their sick children. that, to me, is tragic.
meanwhile, im supposed to be meeting my group mates at starbucks now, which i am taking my time to meet them, of course. they are not annoying to be exact, but just, inconvenient people?
heh. i shouldnt be so mean and i really spend a bomb this month, and zahra's tempting me with her M.A.C voucher. i feel like getting a sexy red lipstick, and a matte nude one for that nude look.
no i should stop it, and meet my group mates now. urgh.
school has been getting more fun, with all the outdoor biology trips around Singapore. but the shitty part is that all the workload is piling up and exams are next week! if i die along the way, please tell my momma that i love her, and xoxo to all the wonderful people that have entered my life, namely my beautiful boyfriend and my sexayy friends,as doom awaits me.
when on earth is all this shit gonna be over and i can finally partayy??? :(
12:53 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
tomorrow im going to sungei buloh wetlands reserve for my biology practical. cool or whuuutt.hehe.
i think in gonna snatch my sister's white school shoes and get it all muddy and filfthy as i tread on the muddy mangroves and capture all the cute little animals lurking in the mud with my low quality cybershot camera cos i dropped it so many times. heheh. cant wait and plan to have a big dinner after that with all my biology teachers crew.
i went to an old friend's house for deepavali yesterday. the food was awesome, as usual. and priya looked so happy with her boyfriend, they look good together. heheh, i really envy those girls who can bring their boyfriends home and get to know your parents and everybody gets along and life would be easier, in a way. my parents and my boyfriend? uhm...i doubt my parents will understand and have the retarded notion that i can only have a boyfriend once i start working and i will be 23 by then.gawd, so old.sighs.
anyhow, there are things to look forward to.hehe. shopping on tuesday, slumber party at zahra's crib ?(i hope), a new haircut, more photography dates with boyfie and i feel like having a booth at home club flea market again, hmm...
meanwhile, i hope tyler gets better and im still curious what his momma thinks of me! grr...
10:07 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
It's been a hard day's night
and I 've been working like a dog.
It's been a hard day's night,
I should be sleeping like a log.
homg.im so horribly busy, so many deadlines and assigments to complete by next two weeks. i didnt know it would be this hectic. i need a breakdotcom.i hate psychology lessons,seriously. yelp!
3:39 AM
Thursday, October 1, 2009
and so this week i went over to my boyfriend's place so that he could show me to his mom. homg, i was so nervous that he had to drag me to his house while i struggle to get away. oh wells, i guess it wasn't that bad. his momma was nice and i feel bad cos i kinda dont understand many Malay words she said, so i hope i didnt misinterpret stuffs she said like, im supposed to be serious in certain parts of the conversation but i went ahead to laugh instead. and i just had to have a blonde moment and i actually forgot to thank her for everything when i was leaving. i hate being an airhead at times. oh wells, i hope the box of Ferraro Roche i gave to his momma will please her, hehe. i even decorated it with a maroon ribbon to make it look extra special(:
i really have to thank my baby for helping me out with my super tedious english holiday assignment. if he didnt pushed me last night, i would still be procrastinating and wont get it done before the damn deadline. i miss my college mates, when the fuck will we hang out sia. haha.and i have so many school stuffs/ shit to do, dont like the gpa system, seriously. and i want more holidays!
9:00 PM
Saturday, September 19, 2009
absolument vintage.
actually im more interested in the convertible. hee. but where am i going to find S$ 127, 000??! maybe im thinking too far, i should get my degree first, then think about getting a car. yawns.
i realise now how small singapore really is. i dont know about the chinese community but, i know the malay community is so small, i really think that everybody knows each other somehow. its great cos then everybody can get along. or is it only in nie? heh. this week i brought my mum and my sis to ntu for dinner, we had Canadian pizza, which is really value for money so while we're enjoying the food, my sister is eyeing the Caucasian students walking by. come to think about it, i dont have any eye candy in school at all. lol.
today is the last day of the fasting month, im yet to find a kebaya batik skirt that fits me so maybe i'll try to head to geylang around midnight to freaking find one and eat all the burger ramly and wadeh before the bazaar ends by tomorrow. but im meeting the boy first to check out some pastries at central and fleaflyflofun before going geylang. today's a really busy day. i miss my turtle-lookalike boyfriend. hehee. we're planning to join a photography competition together, just for the fun of it. so yeah, im very content in life now but im just abit worried for my studies. oh wells, just like this song says, "nothing's gonna change my world". selamat hari raye to all muslims all over the world and all the joy/food that comes along with it cos we deserve it,period.
11:35 AM
Saturday, September 12, 2009
im super pleased that the fasting month is going to be over pretty soon.cos i think i have been facing alot of stress lately, especially with english language(whoever thought it would be this hard), road rage (everyday i worry about changing lanes as quickly as possible to get to the pie (changi) side), not getting enough sleep and not spending enough time with the ones that matter the most. as soon as i reach home, i jsut wanna sleep and sleep and more sleep. but apparently, its hard to do so since i have a really bloody annoying sister who made me fetch her and search for her around town in the wee hours of morning like, 3 to 4am. she thinks that just because i got my license , im her official chauffeur. I could have murdered that girl, i swear. and the lack of sleep and food/water has made me very grumpy, whiny, easily agitated and just fuck tired. i feel so tired 24/7 and i feel bad that i dont show enough attention and give more time to the ones i care for the most. sighs.
6:15 AM
